One of the Wise People I’ve studied over the years said something along these lines:

“The greater your awareness of the Presence of God within you, the more that Presence fills your consciousness.  That is the Law.” – John Randolph Price

Initially I had a hard time understanding what this means.  It sounded like 2=2, or the more you eat, the more you eat.  Duh.

Upon further reflection I think he was saying:  The more I focus on (or allow, or look for) God within me, the more the Presence fills my consciousness.

I say to myself: I don’t feel the presence of God within me. Why?

Maybe it’s because I am searching for that presence with senses that are inadequate, and an attitude of skepticism.  I am looking for a commanding, loving and certain voice…an overwhelming, joyous, happy feeling…and I don’t feel either.  So I tell myself that I am either dense, unworthy, or that God is a con.

But if I simply welcome, and wait…and as my dear husband says “look with eyes of seeing”…I feel a gentle, kind presence.  Beautiful.

When I imagine allowing God to occupy more and more of my consiousness, the thought occurs to me that God wants to live through me.  Then I say “what happens to me?”  It raises fear and ego for sure.  Where will “I” go?  Crazy?  Like Being John Malkovich.

Maybe I don’t have to be afraid.